After 9 months of teaching, i realize that it is not easy to be a teacher. There are a lot of things that i need to think of. To make things worse i am now the head of English panel for the school, sometimes the burden are too much for me to handle. Sometime, when i am all alone i will start thinking of my mother who are alone back in the village and how much i miss her. No one would understand me better than my mother not even the closest friend.

...Happy Happy Day....

I'm in such a good mood today? =) I have passed up my research paper, I have printed my blog and Melta forum. I have finished all the assignments assigned for this sem, now I can concentrate on getting ready for my final exam and a few more classes to go before the semester end.

Actually, there is nothing much I can say in this page today because I have already submitted my research paper. Anyway I'm hoping for the best for my research paper because I have put in a lot of effort to develop my idea for my topic.

Since this is my last blog for this sem, I want to say that I have learned a lot on how to write an academic writing while dealing with my research paper. Overall, it is kind of fun to do a research and get to know more about a particular writers and their work. Its such a good experience...have fun =D

Fighting...

I just have the comments from my supervisor about my third draft. I have to thanks Dr. Fauziah for being supportive towards my work, I know that it is not easy for her to spare her time looking at my paper with all her work that demand her attention. I am so thakfull for all the things that Dr. Fauziah had done for me in guiding me with the paper work. If at a certain time I feel like giving up, than I should thanks Dr. Fauziah for giving me her sincere comments on my work. I was so glad that Dr. Fauziah finally seems satisfied with my work, she just asked me to iron up my work, make sure I check all the grammatical errors. I have asked my friend to check my work for me, so thanks Haiyu =D

My supervisor had extend our due date for the assignment, she is giving us more time to revise our work. I am so glad that I still have the time to do all the edition that is necessary to improve my research paper. My supervisor had adviced me to add more implication for educatioon in my research paper because she thought that there are a lot of things that I can discuss about Sylvia Plath's work and biography in term of it usefullness in our educational context.

Anyway, I am doing my final revision now, I have a good feeling about my research paper. So lets get to work......

I've finished my third draft =)

I'm going to send my third research paper draft to my supervisor today. I have make a whole lot of changes to my research paper after the previous respond from my supervisor. For me, it takes a lot of efford to do so. I have to rethink of my topic and then I have to reorganize my subtopic, so that I can tackle my topic appropriately.

I have made some changes to my previous topic, now I'm going to "analyze the theme in Sylvia Plath's poems "Daddy" and "Electra on Azalea Path" to see why she often wrote depressed poems about her relationship with her father". I think this is the best topic that I can create to deal with Sylvia Plath, because now I can use her poem together with her background to be able to analyze why she developed such depression in her relationship with her father.

After all this, I think it is worth my time to do the changes. After all, I have decided that I'm going to do the best for this reaserch paper because this is the last sem I'll be in UPM. So I want to leave it with a sweet memory, if it is not so sweet, than I still should be proud of myself because at least I do strive to do my best =D

I have a difficult time today =(

I am so sad today, there is still a lot of things that I need to do for my research paper. I just met with my supervisor, she gave a lot of comments on my second draft. That mean there are alot of things that I need to improve =(

Firstly, Dr Fauziah commented on my choice of subtopic, she thinks that it is not appropriate to say that Sylvia Plath is obssed about her father. She have a different set of mind of what is obsession, so she had asked me to work on it. Ahhh....what should I do? I thought that she was obssed with her father because she try to commit suicide just to be by her ftaher's side after 12 years of her father's death. Maybe I have overlooked at it, or maybe it just an unresolved feeling that she felt for her father, because he died when she was only eight years old. That is possible!

Anyway, I'm a bit demotivated with the comments that I got for the draft. But, I have to look at the positive side. This shows that I need to really work on it, so that I can do a better reseach paper. Ok...I'm ready to do this, GO,GO!!

Shooting the elephant

It was interesting to learn this essay "Shooting of an Elephant". At the very first sight of this story, I thought the story is about the hardship living in a country with a colonizer, maybe it is about the people who are oppressed by the colonizer. But then, after I read it further, I found that this story is based on a colonizer's point of view. I think it is kind of interesting because most of the time we can easily get hold of materials that are written to critisize the colonizer. For me, this is a different text all together. George Orwell actually tries to tell the readers the feeling of being the colonizer. From his point of view I get to know that, life as a colonizer is not so beautiful after all, there are some conflict in the story that make the author feel depressed.

All this while I thought that when a colonizers come to a certain country they are happy, because they are the one who take control of the country. But, in this essay everything seems so different, he feels that he is the one who is being pressured by the people. Maybe , this is the side of colonizer's view that we never thought of. Overall, I think reading this essay had broden up my view of what is the feeling of being a colonizer.

Nelson Mandela's Autobiography

For this week's lesson I was assigned to read an Autobiography of Nelson Mandela. Nelson Mandela is a prominet African leader who fight of what he beliefs is right for his people. When I read the autobiography I notice that Nelson Mandela is trying to retell the experience that he had gone through in the prison. I can imagine the hardship that he had to face living in the prison and controlled by the white people who hate the black man.

I find Nelson Mandela's Autibiography is very interesting to read as it inspires me to appreciate what ever that I have now. At least in this country we are not been victimize by anyone and we are free to lead our own life, not like those who were controled by the apartheid. In my opinion, the reason Nelson Mandela wrote this Autobiography is because he wants to share the experience that he had gone through and at the same time inspire the readers to do what they is right.