I have a difficult time today =(

I am so sad today, there is still a lot of things that I need to do for my research paper. I just met with my supervisor, she gave a lot of comments on my second draft. That mean there are alot of things that I need to improve =(

Firstly, Dr Fauziah commented on my choice of subtopic, she thinks that it is not appropriate to say that Sylvia Plath is obssed about her father. She have a different set of mind of what is obsession, so she had asked me to work on it. Ahhh....what should I do? I thought that she was obssed with her father because she try to commit suicide just to be by her ftaher's side after 12 years of her father's death. Maybe I have overlooked at it, or maybe it just an unresolved feeling that she felt for her father, because he died when she was only eight years old. That is possible!

Anyway, I'm a bit demotivated with the comments that I got for the draft. But, I have to look at the positive side. This shows that I need to really work on it, so that I can do a better reseach paper. Ok...I'm ready to do this, GO,GO!!

Shooting the elephant

It was interesting to learn this essay "Shooting of an Elephant". At the very first sight of this story, I thought the story is about the hardship living in a country with a colonizer, maybe it is about the people who are oppressed by the colonizer. But then, after I read it further, I found that this story is based on a colonizer's point of view. I think it is kind of interesting because most of the time we can easily get hold of materials that are written to critisize the colonizer. For me, this is a different text all together. George Orwell actually tries to tell the readers the feeling of being the colonizer. From his point of view I get to know that, life as a colonizer is not so beautiful after all, there are some conflict in the story that make the author feel depressed.

All this while I thought that when a colonizers come to a certain country they are happy, because they are the one who take control of the country. But, in this essay everything seems so different, he feels that he is the one who is being pressured by the people. Maybe , this is the side of colonizer's view that we never thought of. Overall, I think reading this essay had broden up my view of what is the feeling of being a colonizer.

Nelson Mandela's Autobiography

For this week's lesson I was assigned to read an Autobiography of Nelson Mandela. Nelson Mandela is a prominet African leader who fight of what he beliefs is right for his people. When I read the autobiography I notice that Nelson Mandela is trying to retell the experience that he had gone through in the prison. I can imagine the hardship that he had to face living in the prison and controlled by the white people who hate the black man.

I find Nelson Mandela's Autibiography is very interesting to read as it inspires me to appreciate what ever that I have now. At least in this country we are not been victimize by anyone and we are free to lead our own life, not like those who were controled by the apartheid. In my opinion, the reason Nelson Mandela wrote this Autobiography is because he wants to share the experience that he had gone through and at the same time inspire the readers to do what they is right.

My presentation for position paper =D

I have presented my position paper today! It was such a relief that I can now move on with my research paper. The presentation is quite easy, I just need to prove my stand on my thesis statement and provides the evidences to support my claim. However, I feel so unfortunate to present my position paper today because I'm not feeling very well as I keep coughing a lot and it somehow affect my presentation.

I'm also happy with the marks that I got for my position paper, at least there is hope for me to do the best in this paper. Things seem easy from here, as I can focus my whole attention towards my reseach paper now. I have come out with the introduction to my research paper, but I think I still need to improve it. I want to make sure that my introduction will be able to grasp the supervisor's attention to my topic and it should also be able to retain her attention to the works untill the end.

I'm going to show my topic to my supervisor today!!!!

I'm so relief today. My supervisor had approved my topic for the research paper. Now I can continue looking for information about Sylvia Plath. There only a slight changes that I need to made based on my supervisor's advice, I need to focus my research paper on the theme of the two poems and relate it to her biography. Rather than looking at why she often wrotes depressing poems about herself as I decided earlier.

I think I have some rough idea on how to deal with these poems by looking at the thematic approach. Ahhh...its such a relief, I'm going to look for information that can guide me in my research now =D